Shannon Beadorhas decided to dissolve her fillers.

TheReal Housewives of Orange Countystar, 56, shared a series of posts from her plastic surgeon’s office — who did not do the original procedure — on Thursday to take fans behind the scenes of the process.

“Last night, part one of theRHOCreunionaired, and there are a lot of people asking, what did Shannon do to her face?” Beador said in a video on Instagram.

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Beador said that she didn’t do research on the specific type of treatment she ended up getting, and decided to do it ahead of the reunion “without thinking it through.”

“I’m having a really difficult time looking myself in the mirror,” Beador admitted, adding that she has support from her boyfriend and kids. “I don’t recognize myself.”

Shannon Beador at the RHOC reunion.Casey Durkin/Bravo

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Beador shared a series of videos on her Instagram Story as well, documenting the process as her nurse practitioner injected a dissolvent into her cheeks. When the nurse practitioner lauded Beador for being a “great sport” during the painful process, she said, “I’m good. Anything, anything to get rid of it.”

The Bravo star will return to the clinic in two weeks for a follow-up appointment.

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In her caption, Beador said she shared what she was doing because she wanted to be “honest and open about what happened.”

“I am leaving negativity in 2020 and looking forward to 2021 with a positive attitude,” she wrote.

The Real Housewives of Orange Countyreunion continues next Wednesday at 9 p.m. ET on Bravo.

source: people.com