Shia LaBeoufis sharing his experience with the Roman Catholic Church.
The actor — who previously said in 2014 that he “became a Christian man” — sat down with Bishop Robert Barron of theWord on Fire Catholic Ministriesfor a nearly 90-minute conversation about religion and how he has now adopted Catholicism into his life.
LaBeouf, whose mother is Jewish and who previously had abar mitzvah as well as a baptism, studied Catholicism as he prepared for his upcoming movie,Padre Pio, about the Catholic saint of the same name.
The 36-year-old film star told Barron that he entered the filming process ofPadre Pioat a dark point in his life.
“It was seeing other people who have sinned beyond anything I could ever conceptualize also being found in Christ that made me feel like, ‘Oh, that gives me hope,’ " LaBeouf said. “I started hearing experiences of other depraved people who had found their way — in this — and it made me feel like I had permission.”
Shia LaBeouf.Amanda Edwards/WireImage
LaBeouf said in the interview with Barron that he felt suicidal before turning to a higher power.
“I had a gun on the table. I was outta here,” LaBeoufrevealed. “I didn’t want to be alive anymore when all this happened. Shame like I had never experienced before — the kind of shame that you forget how to breathe. You don’t know where to go. You can’t go outside and get like, a taco.”
“But I was also in this deep desire to hold on,” he added.
He told Barron: “I know now that God was using my ego to draw me to Him. Drawing me away from worldly desires. It was all happening simultaneously. But there would have been no impetus for me to get in my car, drive up [to the monastery] if I didn’t think, ‘Oh, I’m gonna save my career.’ "
The pair discussed his career, particularly his acting process.
“You’re seen as one of the best actors in your generation,” Barron said, asking LaBeouf if he considered himself a method actor. He replied: “I don’t identify with that school of thought, really.”
“I feel a whole lot, I’ve got a big heart. I don’t know if I’m a method guy — and I think some of that stuff is ridiculous,” he continued.
“I like to be immersive,” LaBeouf said. “I like all immersive experiences, not just acting. That’s probably why I like Catholicism as well. I like adventure, and that requires full immersion.”
“I would consider myself an immersive actor, but method acting has like a bad smell to it,” LaBeouf said. “Kind of douchey, kind of, just like, mean.”
He added that it gives some people an excuse to “behave terribly.”
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On Wednesday,Olivia Wildeexplained why she fired LaBeouf from her upcoming filmDon’t Worry Darlingin an interview withVariety.
The actor/director, 38, recalled casting the male lead oppositeFlorence Pughfor the thriller.
“I say this as someone who is such an admirer of his work,” she said. “His process was not conducive to the ethos that I demand in my productions. He has a process that, in some ways, seems to require a combative energy, and I don’t personally believe that is conducive to the best performances.”
source: people.com
